September 6, 2009

A PIECE OF MY WRITING APPEARS IN A NEW YORK BASED LITERARY MAGAZINE

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In 1996, a day after India’s fantastic win over Pakistan in the Cricket World Cup Quarterfinal, I was sitting in the offices of a leading English daily in Patna, the capital of the northern Indian state of Bihar. At that time, I used to be a freelance contributor to this national paper’s local edition. The paper’s features team and I were, of course, discussing cricket. Everybody was trying to guess which strategy the Indian team would adopt against a resurgent Sri Lankan team in the semi-finals.   http://www.brooklynrail.org/2009/09/express/the-alchemy-of-identities

July 11, 2009

THE SACRED TREE

BRIEF SYNOPSIS: Set against the backdrop of the destruction of Babri Mosque and its aftermaths, it is the story of Arif, a lower middle class Muslim boy from a small town India.
 
Arif aspires to join the coveted Indian Administrative service. He has been pursuing his dream with missionary zeal until a middle-aged married Hindu woman, Sumitra, crosses his way and the course of his life is changed forever.
 

Culturally insightful with political undertones, it is actually three stories in one. One is simply the story of a boy, a boy from middle class Indian society, who deals with love and lust as he goes through the process of growing up. The second is the story of a Muslim boy in particular, and this flows into a larger narrative of being Muslim in Post-Babri India,  with its own challenges and anxieties. The third angle is the story of Bihar itself, a story of limited opportunities, close-knit communities, conservative mores and of youth trapped in the course that this once-glorious state has taken. Bihar here is not just a province of India but it also symbolises the darkest underbelly of India. Despite all the progress India has made during last two decades, this part of the country remains resolutely shrouded in darkness where the only flourishing industry is kidnapping, where corruption has become a way of life and where violence is a tool of survival.

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THE RIVER GHOST

When Arif came to know of  the rumours about the Pandooa, the river ghost, he laughed. ‘‘How superstitious are  people in this village!’’
 
     Sharief insisted, ‘Arif, this is not  superstition. It has happened. At least two people have  seen the Pandooa.’’
 
     A few months back, Hasrat Khan, the man with a colourful lifestyle and a weakness for women had seen it first. On an evening, he had  gone to the river bank for his evening walk. He saw a woman, dressed beautifully  in a bridal sari and blouse, laden with gold and silver jewellery, standing near a banana tree. He wondered what a beautiful woman was doing at the bank of the river late in the evening. Dusk was nearing and he was hoping that she be  an indecent woman . If she agreed to his overture, he would give her his gold chain, he thought. The bank of the river was a long stretch of sand. Nobody was in sight. He stopped near her and asked,  “Who are you? Why are you standing here?” She didn’t reply and looked straight into his eyes. A cold look, her face devoid of any expression. He felt a sudden shiver. He  started to walk briskly towards the village. He had walked a hundred steps before  he found his towel missing from his shoulder. He turned back and found his towel lying a few yards  back.
 
     “It must have slipped away from my shoulder’, he thought and went to pick it up. But once again, the  towel disappeared from his shoulder. He turned back but couldn’t see his towel as far as his eyes could see. He sped up. As he was about to reach the outskirts of the village, he saw his towel  hanging from a small fig tree by the road. He reached out  his hand to grab it,  but stopped  himself. How could his towel reach here?  He was undecided whether to touch the towel or not when he felt that somebody else was there besides  him. He turned and saw the same woman standing a few yards away. Her face was still devoid of any expression.
 
     Horrified, he started running with all his might. He reached Shohaib Khan’s bungalow and then collapsed.
 
     The second person to see the river ghost was Maulvi Murtuza. On a Tuesday, he had been returning from the neighbouring village. The sun had  set. It was the time of the evening prayer. He decided to offer namaz at the bank of the river. He performed wuzu, the ablution ritual,  in the river. He sprawled his gamcha, the soft towel, on the sand and stood to pray. As he finished his namaz and bent  to collect his gamcha, he saw her smiling.  He had heard from the village that a newly married Rajput girl from the neighbouring village had jumped into the river and  become river ghost. And here she was,  fully dressed in bridal wear. He started reciting ‘’Ayatul Kursi’ from the Holy Quran and then started running at once. He stopped only after reaching the village.
 
 
     Arif remembered his grand ma’s words about Pandooas. “See, they are departed souls who have  committed suicides by  jumping into the river. They try to kill whomever they find near the river at an  odd time like  noon or after dusk. They do that so that they can get some company.”
 
     When Arif asked Sharief to come with him for swimming in the  river,  he first hesitated. Arif challenged him saying that he was a coward despite being a Pathan, he agreed and promised to go with him  in the morning around 10’o’clock, but not after dusk or at noon.
 
     At the outskirts of the village, a poster was pasted on the defunct electric pole. It  warned the wayfarers about the threat of the river ghost. It advised them not to go near the river alone after the dusk. Such electric poles were everywhere in the village. But there were no electricity. The Member of Parliament who won from Inayat Nagar constituency could do only that much for the development of the village.
 
     Arif and Sharief climbed the embankment, which surrounded Alipura and other nearby villages. It had been  built in the 1970s to protect the villages from floods.  Arif looked for a suitable place and sat down to pee. The water hit the field and he search for a dry piece of earth or grit for Kuluf. When Arif got up, Sharief remarked, ‘Arif, always look before you pee. See, you have pissed on ashes. Never do that again. Bones and ashes are the food of Jinnats. This can anger them’’
 
     Arif laughed, slightly shaking his head but said nothing.
 
     At the river, they bathed and swam till noon. In the evening Arif fell sick. A  fever with a chill came visiting him. He was trembling  and shivering continously. Hanif the compounder, a retired army man, was called. He had experience of working in Military hospitals and was the best-qualified doctor in the village. Qurban Ali who had some experience in Homeopathy was also called. But, both of them could bring only Arif some temporary reprieve. The shivering kept returning. Arif’s uncle, Abdul Waheed Khan, when he came to know about his visit to the river,  was very angry with Sharief. ‘’Must have been possessed by the river ghost,’’ his aunt, Saleha Begum, remarked. On her advice, Abdul Waheed Khan called the Imam of the Jama Masjid. He recited from the holy book and blew on Arif.
 
     During the night, Arif remained calm and slept well. But in the morning the trembling returned. This time it was more violent. Two blankets and a quilt were needed  to cover Arif. A woodfire was kept burning. Hanif was once again called.
 
     Many people came to see him. Among the visitors were  Nagma, once a moon faced beauty, now a bony-faced woman, married to a middle aged widower with five children;Saheb Khan, once a child molester, now a bearded man with prayer beads in his hand; Musa Raza, once a poor urchin, now a successful industrialist in Delhi, and Asma Begum, an old lady in the neighbourhood, whom Arif called Asma Dadi. Asma Begum told Saleha Begum that it was nothing but Jarwa-Jaraiya. ‘Dulhan! You must call Baso Nani immediately. She knows the totka to get rid of Jarwa-Jaraiyya. Inshallah! He will  be okay by tomorrow,’ she advised. Saleha  immediately sent Sharief to fetch her. Abdul Waheed Khan was not at home. Other wise, he would not have allowed this. According to him, this was a  Hindu ritual, one a Muslim must not associate with.
     Baso Nani was grandmother to everybody in the village. From a six year old to a seventy year old, everyone called her Nani. She had been living in this village for the last 50 or 60 years. She had come here to live with her daughter and son-in–law who were long dead. There were no grandchildren.  She lived alone in a thatched house, surviving  on the charity of the village people. Many of the villagers  believed that Baso Nani knew magical things. A few of the village women even blamed her for indulging in witchcraft.
 
     Baso Nani arrived. She asked Saleha Begum to bring Arif out in the open air since  Jarwa- Jaraiya needed an open space to fly away. She got ready for to start the ritual to get rid of Jarwa- Jaraiya. Baso Nani would now tell the  story of Jarwa – Jaraiya.
Once upon a time, a widow lived in a village with her only son. Her son was very naughty and mischievous.  One day, out of anger, the window hit her son on the head with a stick. It started bleeding. The boy, angered by his mother’s behaviour, left the  house and ran away from the village. He went to a city and was adopted by a rich, childless couple.
     After their death, he inherited all their property and business. He became very rich. Since then, 20 years had passed. One day he was passing through that village alone. He felt that the place was familiar to him, and  decided to stay in the village for some days. One evening, he saw the widow and fell in love with her. The widow also fell in love with him. The villagers came to know about their love affair and decided to organise a marriage ceremony. The widow became pregnant. One morning, she was massaging her husband’s head when  she saw the mark of a gash. When she asked him, he told her that as a child, his mother had hit him with a stick  and he had run away from his village at the age of 6 or 7. He could not recall the name of his village or his mother’s face.  But, the woman looked at his face and realized why this man’s face resembled that of her first husband so much.
When they came to know that they were mother and son,  they were so ashamed and sad that they decided to commit suicide. They prepared a pyre and jumped into it. Even after death, their souls got no rest. The man became Jarwa and the woman became Jaraiya. Now they trouble people by possessing them, making them shiver. Whenever the story of their shameful liaison is repeated before the person they possess, they run away.
 
‘’O! Jarwa Jaraiya, if you have shame, go away from here.  If you don’t go away, I will repeat the story of your sinful liaison,’ Baso Nani  spoke in a very loud voice. As she  finished her rituals to get rid of the illness,  Saleha Begum took out a 2-rupee note and pressed it into her  hand. A few moments later, Abdul Waheed Khan entered. He was furious with  Saleha Begum for allowing Arif to sit in the open air.
     Arif who had listened to the story with great attention and in fact enjoyed this unusual treatment for his illness, tried to calm  down his uncle  saying ‘’I am feeling quiet good.’’
 
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May 9, 2009

POETRY IN HINDI

 

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हाशिये पर लिखे शब्द

साफ - सुथरे सच बोलने वाले शब्द

अब हाशिये पर लिखे जाते हैं

पंक्तियों के बीच स्थान पाना

उनकी नियति नहीं है

जो शब्द कलुषित हैं,

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March 16, 2009

SANAA AT CULTURAL SHOW

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SANAA IS PUMPKINS GRADUATE, NOW

SANA AT PUMPKINS

February 27, 2009

GIDDHA AT PUMPKINS

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Photographs of my daughter, Sanaa, taken just before the start of the annual day celebrations at Pumpkins where she is going to participate in Giddha Dance.

  SANAA IN PUNJABI DRESS

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January 26, 2009

ADMISSION BLUES

 

Sanaa and her School

The process had already started in the first week of December when the application form was purchased from the best school of Ludhiana. It was a status symbol to get your wards admitted in this school, I was told. And big businessmen with pocketfull of 1000 Rupess bills would be vying to win a seat in LKG class of Sacred Heart School for their wards.The best thing about the school was its lower fee structure despite its numero uno position in the city.The interview day was very difficult for me and wife. I have always been very confident while facing interviews. But first time in my life,I felt nervous and numb while waiting for my turn at the waiting room of the school. . Then we got inside the room. The friendly smile of the teacher who was to interview us made us a bit comfortable. My daughter Sanaa became very friendly to the teacher immediatly as if she knew her for years.The questions asked by her was replied satisfactorily by all of us. Me,my wife and Sanaa.

Then began the wait for 24th January. It was the day, the result was to be announced.The night had been restless as I and my wife spent the night tossing and turning in the bed.The food in the morning tasted awful.I left for office a bit early and while on the way I stopped at the school. A notice was pasted at the gate announcing that result would be out by 2:30 pm.

In office waiting for clock to reach 2:30 was proving to be difficult. I was not able to concentrate properly on my work. I received at least ten calls from my wife who had also been waiting for the result with bated breath. I was frantically checking the website of the school after every 5 minutes hoping that it would be published on the net first. At 2:30 sharp I asked my boss permission to leave and he wished me good luck. Then other collegues too came forward to hug me and to wish me good luck for this mission. The gate of the school was crowded. The cars of every make and model occupied both sides of the road. I found a parking space between a merc and a ford icon. With pounding heart I got in to the school. The notice board was surrounded by a crowd, everybody trying to find name of their wards. Some came out screaming with joy and stabbing the air with their fists. Some carried gloomy faces.I had to jostle with the crowd to reach near the notice board. I looked at the list and could not find my daughter’s name. My heart skipped a few beats. Nausea hit below the belt.I found my head spinning.Then suddenly I spotted my name and then my daughter’s name. I read again and again: Sanaa Khan D/o Abdullah Khan. Suddenly everything changed. I looked around and found the leaves of the trees were emerald green. The sky was bluer than ever. Imposiibly azure. I struted around as if I was drunk. Perhaps, I was intoxicated by success of my daughter. I looked around and saw a few sad faces. A woman was crying incosloably.I felt saddened by their pain. I dailled my mobile and wife jumped as the news. Then I talked to my daughter and she reacted with BALLE BALLE and I was astonished. Even at the age of 4 she understood the meaning of success.

Today’s generation is far ahead of us, commented my wife later.

GOD’S OWN COUNTRY

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Once Lord Curzon called it the Venice of the East. Alleppey is a small town in the God’s Own Country tucked away at the threshold of Arabian Sea and is 2 hours of drive from Kochi. When I landed on Kochi airport, it was drizzling. The imagery from Arundhati Roy’s Booker clinching The God of Small Things came to my mind. And the journey from Kochi to Allepey was a drive through the paradise. The roads were freshly washed by the rain into the ebony black. The roads were flanked by the trees from both sides. The countryside had turned immodest green.

Allepey was much more beautiful than I had expected.  Crisscrossed by the eternally long backwaters and laced with beautiful beaches and lagoons, it is in real sense the God’s own country. The resort where we had stayed, was situated on the serene banks of the Vembanadu Lake at close proximity to the world renowned Nehru Trophy Boat Race. The photographs shown here were taken while boating in the lake in the evening.ALLEPEY 123

October 18, 2008

THE TIGER FROM THE LAND OF DARKNESS

BOOKER WINNING ACT

The way Aravind Adiga entertains in this booker-clinching page-turner absolves him of ‘all the sins’ which are supposedly committed by him as perceived by some of literary critics in his debut novel. The white tiger aka Balram Halwai is not a typical at the bottom of the pyramid character from the land of darkness. He is a revolutionary in some sense because he refuses to accept his position what the pseudo-democratic society bestows upon him.On the way to liberation what he does is a crime. But is Balram’s crime bigger than other players of the story.Everybody ,from politicians to bureaucrats , from feudal lords to hoi-polloi,at some point of time commits a crime against the people who are at lowest level of pecking order. It hardly makes difference that sometime crime is committed out of circumstantial compulsions.

The description of darker side of India will not be by liked by the people who still (with full conviction )believe in ‘Shining India’ and for whom the parameter of progress is limited to the SENSEX or NIFTY. But for a person who is surviving on the one and half course meals, SENSEX even at 30000 has no meaning. Anybody coming from the land of darkness knows that the grim reality potrayed by Aravind in his novel is not a figment of his imagination but it really exists.In fact, it exists in even more perverse form.Yes, at times he is a culprit of generlisations but that is forgiv”able” because for a writer of fiction you can’t use the strict parameter of a social-historian. Overall feel of the book is almost near to the reality.

August 15, 2008

THE ALCHEMY OF IDENTITY

As a teenager while living in the Police colony at Patna, I was never questioned about my identity as an Indian except when a cricket match happened between India–Pakistan.That time my Indianness was doubted . Initially, there was no television at home. So , I used to go Police Canteen for watching matches which used to be jam-packed when there was an India-Pak match. India Pakistan match used to be very difficult to watch. Many eyes observed throughout the match whether I was supporting India or Pakistan. The tyranny of peering eyes made me behave in abnormal way. If I clapped on the fall of a Pakistani wicket many eyes suspected that I was pretending. At that time Azharuddin was icon of Muslim youths and I too vicariously took pride in the fact that a Muslim is out there to fight against our archenemy, Pakistan. I avoided praising Azhar because I feared that people around me might interpret it otherwise. When Azhar played well I heard people waxing eloquence about him.But when he failed he was abused (however not every time) as “Salaa Miyan”.It was not that other players were spared when they failed to perform but their religion was never used to offer expletives to them. My friend’s elder brother whom I fondly call Bishambhar Bhaiya ,is a Kankubja Brahmin , pure vegetarian , a fan of Atal Bihari Vjapayee and a great believer in secular structure of India. He is also a great fan of Pakistani Cricketers. As a team he supports India but he appreciates individual brilliance of many Pakistani players, especially Imran Khan. His room is having a man size poster of Imran Khan. I can’t afford to hang the same poster. Because, being a Hindu and at that Brahmin, his loyalty towards India is taken for granted. I will be declared a traitor.

 

At that time the existence of Pakistan was like an anathema for me. It was also an enigma for me because in my imagination it appears like a land which is far far away from India despite being its neibhour.And when I was growing up with my aspirations to be an author , I had thought about writing a book on Pakistan from an Indian Muslim’s perspective. And when I found out about Farzana Varsey’s A JOURNEY INTERRUPTED , a book on Pakistan from Indian Muslim woman’s perspective , I was so eager to lay my hand that I purchased it directly from the publisher which resulted in to pecuniary loss.Anyway,I have no regrets after finishing the book.

The author has attempted to break a few streotypes which exist on the either sides of the boarder and the fundamentalists on the both sides try to keep those streotypes intact for their own vested interest.A few years ago Amitava Kumar , a celebrated author, had told that Pakistan Muslims always tried to Arabise their cultures in order to deny their common cultural heritage with India.The same sentiments are echoed in this interuppted journey of Farzana Varsey. The replacement of Khuda Hafiz with Allah Hafiz in Pakistan has its parallel in India where Jai Sita Ram has been replaced by Jai Shri Ram.

The way the author has weaved the narrative it draws a reader in to it in the sameway a thriller does.The bits of history sprinkled here and there work as appetiser and would help those readers who are not much fimiliar with pre-independence history of our country.Strangely they don’t appear to be impediments in the progression of the narrative.A MUST READ.